So, holding hands with two girls who may be unable to think really of my reluctance to dance, the metal bugs on my teeth, how I would smile tightly, queerly, without eyes; holding hands with them, I circled the fire—and there’s this one photo of me, blurred by the heat from across the way, plus the smoke and sparks, the distance and the double-grain of the 800 film and the Thrifty digital processing, with lips like a red fingernail clipping, tall and stupid with discontent, holding hands without feeling.
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